Hi peeps, while read my post, listen to this song if you are not listening to any now.
Yeap, I'm here after such a long period of time of not writing.
Campus people all coming back, and I hardly find a time for myself. After all, i'm happy of what i'm doing now. Met new brother and sister and treat them like one. And my work getting more interesting each day.
Happened a lot of things of course. 2 of CampusLife Leader graduated in Degree holder. And CampusLife started to be lead by 5 Cell Leaders which including me. I found myself learned a lot since then. learned to understand people more, learned to be patient more, learned to be Leader more, learned to be more compassionate.
Thanks for those who always support me (CampusLife Cell Leaders), and my colleagues, as well not forget to mention him, Pastor for CampusLife, Ps John.
We are just finished with Mega Structure Camp. All are blessed by then, and more friendship to make and more life shares.
*This LOVE is reaching to my heart Feels so good, don't want to break apart Hold me close, don't let me fall away I thank you for each and every day
Morning time, rub your eyes and look around Soak in all the beautiful sounds as you Crack a window and hear all the forces of nature and the blending of a whole new atmosphere One question, reflection, the number of mornings that you show appreciation 'cause you're alive here to see another day Did you thank GOD for waking you up today? To live life and live to the fullest To show LOVE and LOVE without limits “Live to LOVE and LOVE to live” are the simple keys to this life we've been given One life remains, go own it ONE LOVE REIGNS, grow in it and once you come to know the mercy of GOD we sing once you come to know the LOVE of GOD we sing * Where do I start, Lord, how should I say this? There's nothing better than the one that I came with You're my shining sun and you're the pouring rain Oh GOD you took all the pain that was for me, it should've been for me but you sent your son, oh so graciously and I'll thank you each and every day for the blessings you've poured out my way I lay here, full of sin, full of wrongs took your blessings to write you this song you sent me faith, sent me hope, sent me LOVE and they're the three greatest things from above I'm giving you my life and everything I have and break my heart Lord to do what you will I know it's going to be hard but I'll listen 'Cause it's LOVE that I know is worth keeping * I've been searching hard all day and all night Looking for something that makes my soul feel right In this sinful world the hate won't stop So I got to spread your LOVE, Lord be my solid rock I admit, GOD I take you for granted Your LOVE unchanging, I just can't understand it The fact that you gave your son to die and how I still sin, it must kill you inside Father help me to see what you saw all the pain and anguish when your son was nailed to the cross I want to know you, the lover of my soul JESUS is the only one who makes me whole LOVE is patient, it's kind, it's everything you are without LOVE, nothing's right, to life say “au revoir” work through me, spread the word through sound share the LOVE, shine the LIGHT, let your GRACE abound
Just some sharing. I attended cell group on last Friday which speaks about Never Give Up. The next day, something try to distract me on what i am doing so far. My mom called, and she seems really want me to stay back in MIRI and find work there. *Awkward moment*
What makes me stay in KK?
1. I am kind of adventurous person. I like to try something new. Challenge myself. I choose to stay because i want to learn something new apart from family. Because for me, stay with family close with me, i tend to rely on family. Although it is more benefits to stay at hometown than other places. Can save money, no need to spend on shelter fee or rental, no need to worry about somethings happen to car, because i have my father who know how to fix the car problem. And have better rooms compared to here in KK.
But when i looked through 1 years since i start work (since my internship periods), i learned how to spend my money well, how to know if car got problems and how to fix it, get to know mechanics, learned to live and adapt to more simple lifestyle, eat just enough to save money. Learn to accept no air-cond in the room but only table fan for hot seasons and etc..
In the place i work, i learned alot as well. As i wrote in previous blog, i thankful to God for putting me in that company. I learned lots, i meet lots people in various level of career. I believe it is a platform for me to learned to groom myself to be who i will be. Although what i'm have just enough for me spend, i do not get much higher income as usual freshie graduate, but God's grace is enough for me, God works. Trust me, I've been struggling for this matter within this one year. But God says My Grace is Enough, Never Give Up. Doubt takes place. Frustration takes place. However, i still depend on God throughout all this. God makes me pull through it. Our flesh will comes out all sort of things that makes us give up, that makes us feel we are stupid for the decision we take. But God says never give up, I'm with you.
When you facing problems such as those, you need someone who you truly helps you, for me is my God Father. I learned to depend on Him in everything. Big and small of my life.
2. Ministry - CampusLife. It is the season where God is about to do something through this ministry, I stay for God use me for his plan for this ministry. Be it a prayer, be it a facilitator or just normal member. I believe one things that God is looking for who willing to be used by Him as a tool to do His will on earth. I'm here for that. I do not know how long it will be.
I do have my own plan, but God's plan still works in my life.
Yesterday speaks louder than before about finding other job which come in better pay. Still, i struggled, and feel down. But God comfort me. He helps me by giving me hope.
I just went to the Ladies Breakthrough weekend. It was an awesome and adventurous journey, where i met an accident before i went up to DreamWorld, Kundasang. I was my first time i bumped to others car. However, i feel peace throughout the settlement of the case. I called for my employer, he came and help me go through all it. I was very grateful and thank God for everything. I feel God was with me during that time. But what made me worried was my financial. I just got enough to support me after i get paid. Yeah, i get low income. Now i met an accident, i have to settle it with an amount of money. I have to use money wisely and wisely this time.
Maybe you question that why not looking for other jobs with better income? However, there are pros and cons i work with my employer. The people in my office do take care of me and i feel bless and feel like they are my other family. Cons, i earn not much. However, God do bless the company business, my earning are increase over time. I'm now still keep on learning in my career life. I have a lot of things need to organize and plan ahead and operate. I really see God's provision in my life and my career (to the company as well). I try to not focus for the amount of money i earn for now, but rather i look upon the experience i learned throughout the time i'm working with my employer. Thank You Boss, and my other colleague, you two are awesome and i'm blessed with you two lighten my life which is my career life.
Back to the journey go up to Hills, i was worried by that time, when i think of money, my tears drop. i brought my anxiety to the breakthrough days. Oh ya, i manage to go for the breakthrough as i went up with a group of campus who went up late due to their class. When i arrived at DreamWorld, went for dinner, then for the session which had been run by that time. I manage to go to the half end of the session. When the pastor says, YOU ARE SIGNIFICANT TO GOD, YOU ARE WORTHY, YOU ARE LOVED BY GOD, I cried and i touched by the words. All these while i knew the words, but sometime when we faced problem, these words are blur and we naturally will focus on the problem rather than God who is BIGGER than your problem. I slowly gain my focus to God by that time. The next day, i went for the next session, pastor Valerie shared on her problem of financial. She shared how God brought her throughout the moment of her hard time. I realized what ever she shared are like what i'm facing through now. Her sharing comfort me. I believe God spoke through her. All Glory to God.
On same session, she ask us all to kneel down to God and asked a picture about ourselves at that moment and second pictured of where God want me to be or what God want me to be. I asked, and a picture of this
Branches all around, where a tree is growing and there's a hand with scissor to cut the branches as the tree grow bigger over time. I pray what it's mean, and i see myself as that tree, growing and there's a lot branches try to stop me from growing, the hands comes and help me by cut the branches out of my way to grow.
second picture i saw was this where the continuous of the 1st picture.
The tree grow well and lush with green leaves. While the branches are still around with black & white color, while my territory are colored. I asked God what it's mean? one word came, Different. It is obvious from the picture. So, i believe God going to do something GREAT in my life. But i'm still asking about that question. Just have faith, wait and let God Works in my life.
I get to know people and had my moment with God. I feel loved and comfort throughout the camp and i really overwhelms by God's loves and His present. It was Awesome. There's up and down moment within that 3 days 2 night. Thank you God and my loves Sisters, thanks as well to my employer.
I had upload some photo in my FB, and a song still playing in my mind, and this song played in my head the morning i woke up and get ready to go up hills.
Drink a cup of hot chocolate, eat some cakes for dinner and listening to Kari Jobe, You Are For Me. It's so blissful. Hallo everyone. How's life getting on?
It's new year already, sorry for not posting up what's happen during my new year moment. But i guarantee it's a wonderful memory had made for me.
My lovely cousin had engaged to her fiance. Wow, even my close cousin got engaged already. Time flies fast o... She going to have wedding ceremony in June, hopefully i can be her bride's maid. Never been Bride's maid before in my life. However, i can't hope too much, because i'm not in Miri. Hmmm..... Anyway, Happy New Year allll........ Hahhaha!!
Alright, talk about my day today. Today, hmmm...... How should i say? God has His own timing for everything. I see this point for today. As you walk as God's plan, he will reveal His plan step by step. I believe that. And today, my friends said he got married at this new year time. My friends all one by one getting into family life. For me, i know i haven't ready for that as i have things wait to be accomplish. I'm not unhappy for that. As i tell my other friends, everytime they ask when is the time for me to have courtship. And i told them, still have long way to go, plus, i'm happy to be single so far. Single life also a lifetime God has place for you, so use it to the fullest and use it to glorify My God.
For this moment, it's a time for me to understand and learn to be mature enough before enter more responsible life after get married. I know it's not easy to become wife and mother. So, before i step into that level of life, i repeat, i use my single time to the fullest, and to glorify my God. Hope those who are still single out there, learn to be content and use your time for God wisely and to the fullest. Here are some verses that speaks about singleness,
1. 1 Cor 7:32-35
I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried man is anxious about
the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. But the married man is
anxious about worldly things, how to please his wife, and his interests
are divided. And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the
things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. But the married
woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. I say
this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to
promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord.
2. 1 Cor 7:8
To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single as I am.
So, hopefully this is helpful for those who still single. The second verse doesn't mean that you always remain single but if it's God's will for you to have life partner, you will eventually have it on God's time.
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